About three years ago (2004), my daughter - who was then 7 - started complaining of pains in one of her toes; this was on the left foot, the one next to the big toe.
There was no immediately apparent reason for the pains, but they certainly seemed to be severe, so when she went to the doc's, we mentioned it. There was nothing to see on the toes, no bashes or bumps we could remember, and the pains only lasted a few minutes, so we all thought whatever it was would just heal in time.
But over the years, the pains have not gone away, and I have mentioned them every time we have gone to the doctor - but no doctor ever thought it worth pursuing.
Then, in June this year, she had a prolonged episode of pain, during which she was screaming and sobbing for an hour. I took her straight to Accident and Emergency...where we were patronised and sent away with a dose of paracetamol and a flea in our ear, so to speak. The young lady doctor I saw reacted to my pleas for an x ray with a curt 'I am certainly not going to irradiate your daughter unnecessarily'!
We went on holiday - it happened again in Helsinki, we were just walking around when she began crying and screaming in severe - and obvious - pain, which continued for a hour whilst we sat in a cafe; she was unable to walk during the attack.
We decided that we were going to get to the bottom of this once and for all...
So to cut a long story short, I have just returned from the hospital. We paid to see a consultant who has just confirmed (after x rays...) that she has a tumour under the toenail. It is a Glomus Tumour, quite rare and nearly always benign ( nearly!!!?), but it must be removed asap so that they can look at it and make sure - oh and relieve that terrible pain of course.
She will have the surgery within a couple of weeks and will need a general anaesthetic. She is completely unfazed by all of this; having watched me go through the various forms of treatment for breast cancer over the last couple of years, she is confident in the capability of the doctors and surgeons and her own capacity for recovery. As her mother, I just wish she didn't have to go through this - and I am so cross that nobody would take us seriously.
A rare condition is no excuse for not checking things thoroughly...and as for that young lady in Accident and Emergency...
So my message for today is 'Never Give Up'
Never think you are 'bothering' your doctor; they are there to help you
Never be afraid to keep on 'bothering' your doctor if something does not go away
The same message applies when we are trying to develop a new skill - or our connections to spirit.
If things do not move as swiftly as you had hoped; if you find it difficult to meditate, or to open up, don't give up.
Ask for the help of your guides guardians and angels and trust that you will succeed - but that sometimes, we are not ready , or we need to prove that we are prepared to put in the effort, or take responsibility for the consequences of that development.
'Ten minute Tip'
If you feel frustrated about the ways things are going - no matter what they are...
Take three long, slow, deep, breaths.
In through the nose, and out through the mouth...
Now return your breathing to normal...
As you breathe in, imagine that you are taking a bright golden light in through your nose...and exhaling dark smoke from your mouth.
As you continue to breathe, the golden light becomes brighter and with each out breath, the dark smoke fades and becomes golden light, until you are filled with that light.
After ten minutes, you will feel much better, I promise you; the action of breathing and concentrating on your breathing has a measurable physical effect. You fill your lungs with oxygen and that is transmitted to the brain via the blood circulation. More oxygen in the brain equals more focus, sharper thoughts, more concentration - and that of course means that you are more able to deal with whatever is the issue.
And don't forget to ask your guardian angels to help you whilst you are carrying out this exercise; there is a long held tradition that says that angelic intervention must be asked for, so take advantage of their help!
Michelle x
